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Perry Mason

Things you need to know about me for the purposes of my blog...

1. Whenever I have appeared in court (not open court, chambers stuff (for the uninitiated that means in front of a judge but not in front of the public and without the need to stand up etc) I have been pretty nervous. I've always done fine, but been nervous beforehand. So I decided I can do things like that if needed but I am not a natural advocate.

2. My new job involves doing much more advocacy in open court (more like you see on TV although less glamorous!)

Soooo, I get back from lunch and I've been volunteered to do a chambers hearing. It's only a fifteen minute thing, but I realised that I was actually looking forward to it. An hour later I get told that it's been cancelled and I am actually disappointed.

This is a very unusual thing for me - a year ago I'd have been relieved. But it's almost as if I liked doing advocacy. This is very strange and clearly someone has abducted the real me in the night and replaced me with my opposite.

Or, alternatively, I'm more confident at doing my job these days than I realised, that all the difficult things I've gone through in the past year have actually built up my confidence and that the advocacy thing was more a lack of confidence than ability (although it should be remembered that enthusiasm does not necessarily amount to ability!). And possibly also, that this job is better suited to me than I realised.

When we bought our house we both thought that it was the house God wanted us to get, we thought it before we visited it, even though neither of us had told the other. So we followed that feeling and after we'd gone through the process we started to discover how the house had the stuff we wanted but didn't realise - such as proximity to a park and good neighbours. Maybe the job will be like that too. I hope so. I like it when God unfolds things after you've trusted him. It's a good feeling of being looked after.